Saturday, March 31, 2007

A FREIND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED!!

The great quote... "A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed"... My interpretation of the line is that when a friend is in Need... he is your friend indeed...

When the need is over... so is the friendship... and for the icing on the cake... this comes from friends who are really close :)... OUCH!!!

Now when you feel really down and life’s not taking your side... Who do you go to?? Own hands to wipe the tears... and stupid Blog sites to post feelings... hoping that it will keep you busy and make you feel better...

Saturday, March 03, 2007


THE END BEFORE THE BEGINING!!!

A day I was waiting eagerly for… something special… for someone special… knew it would be special… and would make it special… A day to cherish for the rest of my life…

The day ended up to be special… very special… A day to dread for the rest of my life... A memory to haunt me everyday that I breathe… had not felt so much pain before… had not flown so many tears…

Offered flowers of love…. Got hatred in return…
Offered a night with candles under the stars… Got rejection in return…
Asked to spend some time… Got tears in return…
Got blamed for breaking old relationships…
Got blamed for loving and caring for selfish returns…
Selfish I am… Always wanted her to smile so I could smile… Always wanted her to be happy so I could be happy… Always wanted to take away her tensions...

I refused to admit she was right… stubborn and selfish I was… ignoring that it could never be… All I asked was for a chance… Not realizing how far we were… I realized that night… I was a misfit… a misfit for her… a misfit for her friends… a misfit for her lifestyle… I tried to be what I thought she wanted me to be… but I was never any worth...
Can’t face tomorrow… Need to go away someplace far… Where time will comfort… wounds will heal… tears will dry… have no one to speak to… lost the only one I had… who do I turn to for comfort… No shoulders to cry… Only a screen that will listen to what I type, but has no heart to comfort me in return…
A kiss on the forehead and a plea for forgiveness… life ended… even before it began…

Tuesday, January 30, 2007


DREAMS!!

You can dream about your future.
Your present is always a nightmare.
When the future arrives,
It becomes your present.
And since the present is always a nightmare,
Your dreams turn into nightmares.
Do you still dream?
Or do you fear the nightmare?
Do dreams always turn into nightmares?
And why do nightmares always come true?
Do dreams ever come true?
Or are dreams unconscious expectations?
I know expectations are never met.
Because life is not all rosy.
To reach the petals,
You have to clear the thorns,
Sure to bleed all the way.
Isn’t the rose red enough?
Or imbibes more blood to quench its thirst?
Are the bloody petals worth it?
To bear the suffering of the thorns?
Even though the dreams are unpretentious,
and expectations mundane.

Saturday, January 27, 2007


What is Freindship?

What is friendship? I have read lots of versions, but at the end of it all the question still goes unanswered. Isn’t friendship a relationship that is entered into by two people and it is only as close as they choose to make? Do you have the right expect the same respect that you show without being termed as over expectation? Is friendship based on worthiness or likeness of mind? What is friendship?

Knowing someone so well that you can predict their next move, emotion or reaction?
Being there in times of distress when everyone else leaves? But then do you have the right to expect him / her to remember you in times of happiness? Why is that you are welcome in times of distress and darkness but the next day when the sun rises and it’s all bright again you tend to fade away from their lives?

As a friend, do you have the right to expect the same treatment as he / she treats his / her other friends? Do you believe the reasoning that you are closer to them than others? Why are people closer to the heart overshadowed by the mass crowd? But then you wonder, is it worth being so close to someone’s heart when the others are given more importance? Do you have the right to expect the same importance, if not greater? But why triviality?

Do you have the right to expect the same gleeful tone, smile and joy that others enjoy and you are deprived of? Can expecting the same treatment be termed as over expectation? Do you have the right to get hurt or is it because you over expected? Where does friendship end and love start? Is there a difference between the both? Can friendship upgrade to love? Can love come down to friendship?

Is caring for someone so much that you would do anything to keep that face smiling worth it? Is it worth sacrificing you life and family? Is all the hurt worth it even though it makes no difference to them? Do you quit or continue hoping that one day…? Do you walk away when the answer is no? Do you hope even when the future is decided in the present without giving you a chance? Or do you ignore rejection?

Do you agree to reasoning that you are worth more? How do you explain to them that tomorrow is far away and there will be no tomorrow if there in no today? How do you tell them that they cannot be there in my tomorrow if they are not in my today? When the tomorrow is already decided by them, can you live with the memories of the past or do you die everyday with the memories?

Am I still talking about friendship? Have I answered the question I had started off with or have I raised many more? Friendship, Love, Trust, Hurt, Sacrifice, Tears, Happiness, Sorrow?? How are they linked? Should they be linked? Why is it that all my sentences have ended with a question marks rather than full stops? Is friendship so complicated? Is it worth making friends or would you rather be alone? Hmm… which makes me wonder… what is life??? The bible quotes: Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. Does it take ones life to show love and friendship? Is that worth it? But then again are these questions worth it?

Wednesday, May 24, 2006



DI SMILE!!

As I saw her face that day,
While she sat there in front of me,
I come to my senses, face reality,
She’s the lone rose in the garden of infinite weed,
I am one of them, not a soul will need,
Convinced I am, never to see that nod,
One in a million, those are my odds.

All I have is my hope and might,
That one day the sun will shine in the night,
I find no soul, to hear my strife,
Is this all i have in my life?
Why all ears deafen, hearing my plight?
I find no shade to hide my fright.

I continue to walk, the path to dead end,
Knowing the situation will never mend,
The game is over, but I choose to play,
As I saw a smile on her face that day.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Who takes shit from you day in day out but never spits back at you?

Ur Toilet Seat :)

Friday, October 21, 2005


BLACK


I sit by the shore
Wanting to live no more
Weeping from within
Run out of tears to shed

Can't feel my heart beat
It’s a piece of dead meat
Have I forgotten how to love?
Maybe love has forgotten me.

As I watch the sun set
I hope not to see it rise
The light fades away
Blue waters turn black

As I see the lonely moon
Glorious blue in black
Love was once magical
Now I appreciate the black

Light falls on me again
Startled to see me still in pain
As appalling as it may sound
I see black doves fluttering around

The sea goes shhhhhhh
Asking me to pour no more
I pick myself and begin to move
All things turn from pale to black